TOTAL FREEDOM*

Recently, bit by bit, Nature has carried me through an experience that slowly build my total freedom. What do I mean by freedom? Being independent from emotional attachments to be loved, accepted, and understood by others...even from the dearest ones...

It has been a difficult process; I was struggling sometime. But when it's over I feel more and more content of myself.

This process reminds me about one of the most beautiful quotations I have ever read...

Mother Teresa: "Do It Anyway"

The version found written on the wall in Mother Teresa's home for children in Calcutta:

People are often unreasonable, irrational, and self-centered. Forgive them anyway.

If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives. Be kind anyway.

If you are successful, you will win some unfaithful friends and some genuine enemies. Succeed anyway.

If you are honest and sincere people may deceive you. Be honest and sincere anyway.

What you spend years creating, others could destroy overnight. Create anyway.

If you find serenity and happiness, some may be jealous. Be happy anyway.

The good you do today, will often be forgotten. Do good anyway.

Give the best you have, and it will never be enough. Give your best anyway.

In the final analysis, it is between you and God. It was never between you and them anyway.

-this version is credited to Mother Teresa

You may wonder, what has it got to do with total freedom?
If one day, you are really able to 'do it anywa'y', to believe in yourself, without fears of negative things that other people may think or say or do to you, then you are a totally free person...

Seorang Asing...

Kekasihku, dirimu terlahir warga Yudea, diceritakan pengikutmu, dibumbui oleh Yunani, dibakukan oleh Roma, diprotes di Wittenberg, direformasi di Jenewa, disebarkan dari Wuppertal. Wajahmu sekarang adalah seorang bermata biru kecoklatan berhidung lurus sekaligus bengkok berambut pirang kehitaman; pemuda berjiwa tua. Mengapa pria Yahudi anak tukang kayu itu dipuja, tetapi tetap tidak dikenali?

~26 Oktober 2010~

One Simple Truth - Suatu Kebenaran Yang Sederhana

Aku menemukan suatu kebenaran yang sederhana:

Orang-orang tidak bahagia karena mereka tidak memperlakukan diri mereka sebagai manusia. Mereka hidup seperti mesin, dan dengan cara demikian mereka mengkhianati keberadaan atau hakekat mereka yang sebenarnya atau yang sejati....

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I have discovered one simple truth:

People are not happy because they do not treat themselves as human beings. They live as machines; and in that way they betray their very existence...'

Cikarang, 22 October 2009, 22:00 WIB

Terusan Puisi Hujan (Hujan II)

Kau ingatkah hujan itu?

Tak peduli kencangnya badai

Tak hiraukan derasnya air

Aku beranikan untuk melangkah dengan kaki kecilku

Kau ingatkah hujan itu?

Walau hatiku gundah cemas

Kutinggalkan tempatku bernaung

Dengan kekuatanku yang tak seberapa kupanjat tembok itu

Ketika aku sampai di seberang

Aku pun tercengang

Kulihat bentangan luas bukit terindah yang pernah ada

Ratusan warna-warni bunga bermekaran

Daun-daun hijau di pohon rimbun

Dan danau kecil jernih tempat minum para hewan

Aku pun melangkah dengan ringan

Menikmati semua yang ada

Dan waktu pun menjawab doa

Dan memberikan arti cinta:

Sebuah kenyataan

Yang dapat kuhirup, kuteguk

Kusentuh dan kupeluk

Dan kunamai

"KEBEBASAN"

"Love will set you free. TRUE LOVE did."

(Groningen, 22 September 2002, 17.00)

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'I've discovered one simple truth: People are not happy because they do not treat themselves as human beings. They live as machines; and in that way they betray their very existence...'---Elda Luciana Pardede

BIG BOYS DON"T CRY?

It was a statement from a friend's status in Facebook.

And of course, it tickled me to respond immediately..

I said this to him (with additional comments in brackets):

(Why not?) (For) boys with big hearts and souls--(I believe) we call them MEN--(should) dare to cry when they feel like crying.

'Coz (when they are really mature) they are not disturbed or worried anymore by what others (say and) think about them.

(In other words:) Their actions are not CONTROLLED by others...

So if you feel like it, just cry, Brother...

It doesn't make you less man, on the contrary, it makes you more human...:-)

I WILL DRINK YOUR CUP OF POISON...

THE JESUS YOU MAY NEVER KNOW
(From Jesus Christ Superstar Movie)

The depiction of Jesus Christ in this movie is humanly awesome. For some time I was always disappointed with Jesus movies. The makers of those movies made Jesus as a distant, boring, serious & like-to-give-advice old man. He was ONLY 33 years old when he died, one year ahead from my age now!! And at this age I definitely feel so playful, cheerful & so young in heart! How could have been Jesus so close to children if he was boring & not playful? How could have he be attractive to 'Sinners' if he did not like to make jokes?

Then I met this 'Jesus', played by Ted Neely, based on a Rock Opera composed by Andrew Lloyd Webber (the one who composed The Phantom of the Opera) & lyrics written by Tim Rice. This movie CHANGED my life forever!This scene is a song from the famous 'struggle' in Gethsemane, when Jesus confronted his certain fate of death at the cross. The title of this post is a quote from a part of this song:

God thy will is hard, But you hold every card
I WILL DRINK YOUR CUP OF POISON
Nail me to your cross and break me
Bleed me, beat me, kill me, take me now
Before I change my mind...

I only want to say,
If there is a way,
Take this cup away from me
For I don't want to taste its poison.
Feel it burn me,
I have changed.
I'm not as sure, as when we started.
Then, I was inspired.
Now, I'm sad and tired.
Listen, surely I've exceeded expectations,
Tried for three years, seems like thirty.
Could you ask as much from any other man?
But if I die,
See the saga through and do the things you ask of me,
Let them hate me, hit me, hurt me, nail me to their tree.
I'd want to know, I'd want to know, My God,
I'd want to know, I'd want to know, My God,
Want to see, I'd want to see, My God,
Want to see, I'd want to see, My God,
Why I should die.
Would I be more noticed than I ever was before?
Would the things I've said and done matter any more?
I'd have to know, I'd have to know, my Lord,
Have to know, I'd have to know, my Lord,
Have to see, I'd have to see, my Lord,
Have to see, I'd have to see, my Lord,
If I die what will be my reward?
If I die what will be my reward?
Have to know, I'd have to know, my Lord,
I'd have to know, I'd have to know, my Lord,
Why should I die? Oh why should I die?
Can you show me now that I would not be killed in vain?
Show me just a little of your omnipresent brain.
Show me there's a reason for your wanting me to die.
You're far to keen and where and how, but not so hot on why.
Alright, I'll die!
Just watch me die!
See how I die!
Then I was inspired.
Now, I'm sad and tired.
After all, I've tried for three years, seems like ninety.
Why then am I scared to finish what I started,
What you started - I didn't start it.
God, thy will is hard,
But you hold every card.
I will drink your cup of poison.
Nail me to your cross and break me,
Bleed me, beat me,
Kill me.
Take me, now!
Before I change my mind.

*Music by Andrew Lloyd Webber, Lyrics by Tim Rice

AKU MENGGUGAT CINTA*

Aku gugat kamu, Cinta!
Kamu bikin aku ngelamun
Nggak bisa tidur malam-malam
Dan nggak enak makan

Aku menuntut si Cinta
Yang entah kenapa
Bikin aku senyum sendiri kayak orang gila
Dan membuat mimpiku berbunga-bunga
(Yang berdaun ijo dan entar lagi jadi buah)

Dan si Cinta itu
Memenuhi kepalaku dengan syair cengeng
Kata-kata omong kosong
Dan ide-ide tolol……
Nggak bisa konsentrasi belajar, Bung!

Semoga kamu disidang
Dan divonis sepuluh hari sembilan bulan
(Catatan: tidak ada asosiasi dengan jangka waktu keluarnya hasil persetubuhan)
Paling nggak sampai aku selesai sekrepsi!!

Depok, 7 Juli 2000

KUTUKAN BUMI

Hancurkan saja, babat habis semua
Matikan nyanyian burung dan tawa satwa liar
Renggut tarian monyet yang bergelantungan
Lukai hati pepohonan dan tebanglah sembarangan

Tebas saja, rampas semuanya
Gemericik air terjun dan kedamaian alam
Gesekan dedaunan dan suara hewan malam

Bunuh saja, bunuh semua
Lalu isi perutmu yang buncit itu
Dengan nasi (atau steak?) hasil perusakan
Dan isi kantungmu yang lebar itu
Dengan uang hasil penjarahan

Setelah itu, mampuslah
Mampuslah tertimbun emas dari hutan
Sengsaralah,
Menderitalah di bawah isak tangis erosi dan banjir jika hujan
Dan tertawalah, para Setan,
Tertawalah kau Nyonya dan Tuan,
Karena akhir akan segera datang......

Depok, 27 Mei 1999

MENTAL PENJAJAH*

Engkau memiliki mental penjajah:

Ketika engkau bertemu orang yang tidak bersekolah,
Engkau merasa lebih tahu

Ketika engkau mengunjungi tempat tinggal kumuh,
Engkau merasa lebih berkelas

Ketika engkau bercengkerama dengan penduduk desa
Engkau menganggap mereka kampungan

Ketika engkau melihat rumah panggung
Engkau menganggap penghuninya terbelakang

Ketika engkau memandang kulit yang lebih gelap
Engkau menganggap kulit putih lebih indah...

Maka engkau akan kehilangan kekayaan jiwa, karena...

Engkau buta...
Untuk melihat keragaman warna
Engkau tuli...
Untuk mendengar kebijakan dalam kesederhanaan
Engkau bisu...
Untuk menyanyikan kidung kemanusiaan
Batinmu tertutup...
Untuk meraup kekayaan hati

Kalau engkau menentang segala bentuk penjajahan..
Bercerminlah terlebih dahulu....

Apakah sikapmu seperti seorang penjajah?

Cikarang, 07 Oktober 2009, 14:53 wib

*Selagi membaca ‘Saving, Wealth, and Population’, oleh Lee, Mason, dan Miller (di dalam Birdsall et al, 2000), ketika berulang kali tersendat-sendat karena melihat sudah banyak nilai yang bergeser dari ‘kemanusiaan’ di dalam ‘sistem’ ilmiah yang diterima secara global…

Sungguh sebuah tragedi!!

‘Educating the mind without educating the heart is no education at all’
Mendidik kepala tanpa mendidik hati adalah bukan pendidikan sama sekali…

(Ini Sokrates yang bilang, bukan saya…! :-P Tapi saya sepakat..hehehe...)